hey all! okay today's okay. went out at 2 plus reached larry's place at 3pm? yah haha. then after that followed belley to meet her grp one ppl=) which are: asyraf azimah and nabil (eevee) yeap<3 curves!!! i so miss them alot larh. LIKE NOW!!! sigh. i feel like very glued to them. cant pass a day not thinking about them eh=( aww..haha! well so after that went to badminton as usual=) haha nothing much larh=) well so i went home at 6.30pm then now its 12.20pm!! WOW! my whole family's asleep already. haha! i'm chatting with my curves<3. well..nothing much. tmr i'm gonna hang out with my cousins and all=) gonna miss my curves=( and 2E5!!! duhh..! haha! night

heyall! haha! i just got back from shidah's house=) she has a nice room=D yeah. so today's the curve's day out=D awesome! haha! yeah. so like we went to Ehub for the first NEW MOON or the DAY!!! haha yeah. awesome right? haha! its nice eh=/ but alot of them prefer twillight=X but i think new moon's nicer eh=X haha! dont know larh. but khalis was damn funny!!! cant say anything cuz if i did then i'll spoil the show=X haha! but the OMG!!! is damn funny larh. yeah. AND JACOB BLACK IS DAMN HOT!!! omg larh. his 8pacs damn OMG!! haha yeah. so after that we went to pasir ris park for picnic. haha. still okay larh. but after that we went to tamp to buy frenship bands=) girls get the international les colour which is orange and the guys get the international gay colour purple. haha! okay larh so after that went to walk around and went coffee beans then heather's bf appear. haha. i knew him quite long ago larh=X well thats another story but it doesnt matter. haha. well so we ate dinner at food culture and my DEAR JANINE APPEARED!!! yeah missed her a hell lot larh. haha. so we chatted and all then belley need to go for tuition. guessed she's late for tuition larh. haha okay so like i have no where to go so went to shidah's house. yeah then like we talked alot.( me fir j9 shidah) so now i'm at home=) haha. tmr have badminton=) 2E5 ftw!!!=D

LOL! hey people! xin chao!~ i just got back from vietnam today.=/ dont really feel like coming back though. everyone misses vietnam. everyone wants to go back=(. sigh.. shagged to the max=( . i miss vietnan alot!!! esp nam cang sec!! LOVE THE TEENS<3!!! aww.. they are so warm and sweet!! i enjoyed every min with them. esp the sec 4 class<3 they are really cute and sweet<3 love the guys there=X opps! haha! yeah. i miss my curves like crazy='(. feel like going out now to meet them=X haha but i bet everyone's a sleep or something=(. yeah anw i cant either..sad.. yeah vietnam is the greatest ever! <3 MY CURVES!!!! haha LOVE THEM!<3 we are so like family=(.

LOL my last post before i'm gone=) haha yeah. so today was a tiring day in general=/.
had choir in the morning went for choir=) haha okay larh. was kind of fun and crazy in a way=/. i had to chiong home cuz i need to meet e7 ppl.. LOL dont ask me about the outing cuz its screwed up. so larry cant plan much sucessful stuff..well..but at least he had the initiative to larh. haha=) shall give him credit for that=) well.. so then maisheng melvin.t and rachel came to my house for MAHJIONG<3 LOL haha! totally awesome=) yeah. the rest went decided to rent movie at the end and went to mainey's house to watch=) haha hope they enjoyed it=) well..we actually wanted to watch perenomial(sp) activities but dint cuz the timing wasnt right for us=/ haha. LOL so yeah.. had my dinner at my grandma's (dad's mum) house. well.. it came out that my mum's family is SUPER irritating and complicated=.= LOL sometimes i feel like just standing out at just say my piece but well..my mum is the youngest and i am just ***** ***** what stand and say do i have? yeah? haha! well this kind of suck big time=( my gandma's dead but all **** **** is such unimportant stuff=.= how can **** talk about all these?! ROAR! and the more i hear the more i feel like crap=.= like WTH..seriously..my grandma became so poor thing. (****** ** *** ****) sigh.. just hope that she's living well at a different place=) thats all that matters now anyway=)

haha. today was i tiring day=) woke up at 6.45am and went to school at 7plus. yeah. there a vietnam trip briefing again=X. haha yeah. so went there and did some final packing and stuff. there after went out to east point in mr leong's car with lynnete and dayana. haha did a hell lot of shopping yeah!? haha! left the ball pump not bought yet. =X mr leong say he will buy or something. so went back to school with his car and we continued to do alittle more of packing. by then its already 3plus=X late for choir...but i told them earlier that day that i'll be late.=X haha! yeah so i went to choir with a hyped up spirit. dont know why=/ haha just that cuz everyone was singing so softly that i got to bring up their spirits to sing better=) but it dint work i guessed=/ haha then after choir went to badminton=) the usual thing haha. played retarded dare or dare=X i totally no more face larh=( haha but its okay. who cares=) as long as its for a good laugh. HAHA! oh! did i mention that today is our dear seniors' prom night?haha!!! it BOLLYHOLLY! =) so hope that next year's prom can be masqaurade=D that'll be so cool=D oh oh oh!!! and i got upwords=D

i dint blog for a quite sometime. yeah my grandma just passed away last friday=(
i was having choir then my mum text me saying her mum passed away. kainda hard to believe cuz she was okay when i last saw her.=/ from what i heard it was a peaceful death. she slept to death. my grandad said she was okay in the morining. she woke up to eat and stuff then she went to ate her medicine and went to rest. my grandad went out to buy lunch and called her to wake up but she stopped breathing, she passed away. but she was smiling..yeah. so after that everyday i was down at the funeral=')
its sad, i cried. who doesnt? but its part of life. sigh i just hope she's happy living in heaven.=)

true enough. i know this feeling, kind of familiar and yet i hate it. its not easy to feel that everything is okay because its not. its hard to pretend when you are not sure what it is. i'm starting to have doubts about myself..i'm not sure about everything anymore. i'm confused..its sickening.